It's kind of you to say so, but I don't know about an old soul... Old, yeah, but mainly in body. (Or older than I'd like to feel, anyway.) At least I've had time to rack up some experience in what matters most. Sadly, as with most people, my current knowledge is a direct result of "experience" and it seems there's no way for humans to get the experience to know better without having not known better to begin with.
It helps if, whatever it is you regret about your time with that person, you do your best to do better with those who are still in your life and those you are yet to meet. Learning from what went before is one of the best ways to honor the person you lost - and one of the best ways to not feel as down on yourself.
You're more than welcome, DJ. I hadn't realized you'd lost someone close to you, but I know how that one goes as well. Definitely time helps to make remembering not hurt so much and allows for good memories predominate. Now, for a bit of that laughter (I hope)... It's a Force to be reckoned with! Use it wisely... http://cheezburger.com/8488296192
I'm so glad to hear you're recovering. I've been there and on occasion still am. I had a breakdown in grad school from a major case of clinical depression. Many folks will have an initial episode, take some meds for a year or so, get some therapy, then pretty much be back to where they were and won't ever have another one. Others, like me, never quite get back to where they were before the first big one. But... for the most part, they come back most of the way with just the occasional dip. That's been me for 28 years and I can honestly say that life since then has absolutely been worth it. It took learning how to manage my life to avoid "trends and triggers" that were bad for me and remembering to hang on for dear life - literally dear life - when an episode arose despite my best efforts. My mother suffered from lupus for many years and I've come to the conclusion that depression, in some, is just another of the many chronic conditions that *CAN* be coped with with the right approach and the right support from friends, family, and loved ones. One of the best "medicines" of all? Regular, daily opportunities to laugh. Either here at ICHC or at another place(s) of your choosing, laughter should become as common to you as breathing. Aifinkso! (((Hugs)))